We had a bit of a catch up, a laugh about how manipulative (and pathetic) Mr Flirt had been, and she did my hair too. I felt a million dollars when I left.
I bumped into someone I've worked in the past when I was out later on. My H has worked with him and knows him too, but he didn't ask about my H when we were chatting, so I wonder if maybe he knows what's happened?
Anyway, it was quite funny...I caught the tiniest millisecond of an admiring glance from him as we were chatting. Made me smile to myself as I went on my way.
I've been doing some tidying up. I have lots more to do.
I'm conscious that I'm basically pretty much waiting for the next few days to pass until my H leaves for the States, and then I'm pretty certain he won't be getting in touch with me while he's still away (he comes back at the start of May).
I don't often feel jealous of anyone...pretty much never really. I always feel genuinely happy when friends have something good happen for them and when they share it with me.
But I'm getting a bit of a choking feeling when I think of my H being in New York. I have always wanted to go there. I knew a couple of years ago that he would be going there for work and I was really looking forward to going to visit him. Now he'll be there, probably with OW as well, sharing some amazing, new, exciting experiences. I feel a bit cheated out of what *we* should have been sharing.
I don't know what to do with that feeling? It's such a weird feeling for me.
