Basically I need to just grow my ways of dealing with things to the way they were.
Not the way I have been trained to react. I need to proactive in a more respectful way and more softy as well.
Had a fellow breeder loose his foal over night and today bought some tearful reflection. All the death that surrounded xh2 and me and that year was so over whealming it still causes some light eye leakage. He was as you do blaming himself and he I think has been going thru a bad breaks as well. Positive bloke but I think a tad broken today, I wish I was closer to just sit quietly and have coffee. To just be present and share some of what we do round here that being there support.
Losing anything that's new born is just tragic it's the promised life that never gets a chance.
And today was the first compedative shooting, I now want to trade the Ma clampet engraved shot gun for a pretty had gun! While results were far better than I hope as my biggest fear was not hitting anything. In another I was a long way last. Lots of improvement needed. So the compedative gg is back!!!!!!
I don't like last place, not one little bit.
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
