Day by Day..Hour by Hour

[Rain75]

Rain, it all sounds so confusing -- the texts and the sweet words, but then saying he hopes you find someone else. It just doesn't make sense.
Do you really want him to leave you alone? I can see why you would. Everyone says that if we have NC, we'll feel better and get better. I fight it with every fiber of my being, and whenever I hear her voice or see her I feel better. It's sick. (Of course when I see her with OW, which I haven't yet, that won't feel very good at all. Ick.)

You go right ahead and blubber away. Let it all out. I'm thinking of you.

((((((((Rain75)))))))

Thanks NYGal. He can't (won't) give me more than sweet texts...so....Yes, after the past few days I do want him to leave me alone. I do love him (pre A him) but how much pain will be enough? I'm tired of crying so much and of being 2nd choice!

If he can't find his way out of the sh!t storm he has created then leave me alone. If I can't get transparency, again leave me alone. Because if you aren't trying to work towards gaining my trust again...there is no hope.

It will hurt me when he stops all contact but seriously can it be worse?... look at how hurt I am now? He has one foot in and his other foot and entire body "out".

I deserve more. That much I know.

I was where you are. Hearing his voice or seeing him made me feel better too. Every stage is so hard. You did really great tonight. I would have broken down I'm sure lol. And OW ick to the tenth power!

I read an article written by a former OW/curent wife. A cautionary tale. It was pretty long but boiled down to the fact that as soon as she was officially the wife and the excitement of the A was over their relationship went to hell. And her step kids hate her and the family and friends didn't embrace her into their world the way she thought they would. Etc.

And to be clear here I came across it on a blog that was discussing DR and DB methods. I'm not actively searching out OW stories LOL