Stepping in a Different Direction

[Pax_luv]

Ok the interesting stuff.

When H wanted to be rid of me, I really felt like he was out having the time of his life thinking he made the best decision ever.... and today, I got a glimpse of his depressing life. Now, keep in mind, I don't know if he was trying to make me feel bad for him or if he was being genuine.... I really don't. Either way, the "story" is not what I imagined.

He's been depressed. He said he "hit therapy hard" and started going again every week. He misses the dog when I have him. He says, it's not fair, I have family and he has nobody so he really misses the dog. He has just a few friends that he hangs out with. He clings to the corner of the bed when he sleeps, and then leaves the house for the day as soon as he can. His jobs aren't working out, and he just got screwed out of a gig.
He went to the eye dr today and had to get his prescription adjusted because he refuses to get readers... he said this is out of vain. He even takes pictures of food labels just so he can blow it up and read it. His eye sight has really gone downhill the last few months and said, "It's the sad part about old age."
He packed up my knick knacks and things that reminded him of me because it hurt too much looking at it. He wants no memory of his past.

Lastly, I tried to validate all this info the best I could. It was hard! I did slip at one point when he was spewing about the house and for some reason I said, "Don't worry about it, I'm not in love with you anymore" and he just scoffed and continued on. I don't know where that came from.... but it came out.

Towards the end, we did both have a laugh at the dog and one of his tricks. So, that's that. I think this is the start of a rough road ( I can't escape the legal aspect of this, but I won't let it affect me emotionally).

One last thing... his memory is horrible!!!! His dates/conversations etc. are all wrong! I actually was trying to argue dates with him and it was pointless.... he said this is our biggest problem... always on different pages.

*smacks head** This is just so crazy!