Day by Day..Hour by Hour

[Rain75]

He text me saying that he has been thinking about me and how I refuse to let things go and move forward. So with that he is sorry, he loves me, and he hopes that one day I can forgive him but he will not do this with me anymore. He will not keep fighting with me and he hopes I find someone and can be happy because he deserves to be happy and he can't be with me.

Is he f#%@ing kidding me!? So he can cheat and lie for over 2 years and then immediately get into all of these hook up sites but the fact that he has said sorry a few times over the course of less than 2 months (and I haven't forgiven him) means its over? This has got to be a twilight zone episode.

Never mind that he vetoed transparency and has put our kids through hell. Or that he broke my heart. None of that is the reason. Just that I didn't fall over myself to forgive him when he muttered I'm sorry.

And he wants me to find someone else. Talk about kicking me when I'm down. You couldn't let your ex go but you easily set me free with your blessing to find another man and build a life with him. For him to raise our kids with me.

I didn't respond. If that's how he feels then it's how he feels. I just hate that he can still make me cry.