Raliced, you have handled yourself with such strength and grace. You've been a real inspiration to me. I agree-- it's hard to understand how they willingly give up so much time with their kids. My friend is dating someone who splits his kids 50/50 with his ex. I have a lot of respect for that kind of dad.
As for distancing yourself from others. .. I can understand how it can be hard to put yourself in a position of vulnerability again. There is great risk in that. I would second the recommendation for Brene brown. Something to work through, in time. All in good time. My shrink told me today it could take 4-5 years to fully heal from this. Hang in there.
