Where I am...

[mahhhty]

GB - It's like 58/42 or something. I am keeping track. And actually you were the reason awhile ago. I think you posted something similar about when kids grow up and that prompted the note taking.

So I made a mistake today and was caught.

I made plans with my sister to go to her house with my kids and see the cousins, and then go skiing on Saturday and Sunday. This required me to leaver early today.

I made those plans and then realized D had a Doc Appointment. So I rescheduled it out 2 months (it is her 5 yr checkup and was already pushed).

I then got this text from X:

If you couldn't bring her, I could have asked my mom?? She is over due as it is.

Then X's Mom calls, I was on a conference call and didn't pick up.

X then sends this:

In the future please consult me before you cancel an appointment for the kids. I could have made it work.

I called back the Doc and rescheduled for next Tuesday (there was a timely cancelation between my calls... go figure).

But I was already upset, and obliged her bait.... I responded at like take 5...

I've got an earlier appointment to Tuesday they had a cancellation. If you can't bring her I can. My reasoning was to help out my sister. How do we get to a point of mutual co-parenting for the best of the children.

I should haven't wrote it. But I was frustrated and let it get the best of me. I then wrote an additional response after I came up for air, but I haven't sent it.

"You were right about the appointment she needed something sooner. I made plans haphazardly ahead of time. I shouldn’t have rescheduled so hastily. I also shouldn’t have written the last question. When you read that sentence I bet you think I am putting it on you, like it is your issue to solve. I am not. It is ours to improve, I honestly don’t know how or where to start. He was brought to my attention a long time ago, before I stopped following you on insta/facebook, before I offered my kidney and before the letter. I waited patiently for you to step forward. I have removed myself from your family to the best I can giving you the space in which you wanted. But the kids are our connection, they tell me he is sleeping over and participating. As a loving father I’m asking you to be careful and look out for their best interests. 2 weeks ago D cried for almost an hr talking about you being sick, hospitals and me fixing it. They are scared, worried and don’t understand. But they pick up on fragments of every conversation. We are going to My Sisters’s. X-Nephew has had a difficult time at XMas understanding why you weren’t around. If possible please let me know ahead of time when you will be calling so I can get the kids away from him. "

I haven't sent the above. Having an outlet helps me, as long as I get there to use it.