First time poster-needs advice

[mbebos]

Not initiating contact is so tough. In my situation, my W and her family and our friends are 80% of the people in my life and almost all of my "family". Not reaching out to her or her family has been hard, like I am sure it is for you. You are doing well, always remember that. Given this situation you are doing well.

I have been asked by friends the same question regarding wanting someone who doesn't want you. My response was something to the affect of.. I believe in Marriage, and I meant it when I said weather all storms til death do us part. My love is unconditional. Right now that love from her is buried somewhere, and I am hoping it can be brought back to life. I have to make my best effort for me.