It's exciting monitoring my own actions and the reactions of people while I focus on becoming the man I was 5 years ago. Confident, approachable, out going. Ex. Stopped at shoe store today. A real one. Not box store. Normally I would kind of hide and if approached say just looking thanks or I'm ok. And try and figure out by myself what I want. I almost did tonight too. But said ya actually, this is what I am wanting to do. Change my running shoe rut... She was very helpful. First asked ok. What style jumps out at you? I said this. And she was great had lots of opinions and suggestions. Where normally I would have looked and left feeling like they had nothing I wanted. Now. These shoes were very much out of my price range. So I didn't buy any yet. And normally would have kind of snuck out so I didn't disappoint the sales person. I made an effort to say thank you for your help. It gave me a much better idea of what I want. I didn't find the right one tonight, you helped a lot tho. Have a good night. It felt so much better than the shy. Afraid of what people think Tyler of the last 4-5 years
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
I love the small wins Tyler. They are so motivating and rewarding. Enjoy the feeling. This is what success and happiness feel like. I'm doing a little minion happy dance for you Banana Baaannnaa Banana!
I'm doing what my S3 calls the robot roscoe dance off of a show he likes. He did it last week and I almost fell over laughing. So we do it together now. I forgot how good it felt to be like this. There will be set backs for sure. Thanks for the support Jb! I am happy you stopped in. Made my night even better
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
Part of me wishes the txting would tail off. I was awake for 10 minutes today and the txt a started. I swear she is watching me somehow. All about do I need anything for the boys as I am getting them for the weekend. So I sat for 5 minutes and thought about all I would need that I don't have here right now. Txtd the list and she just keeps continuing with oh I might drive all the way because ..... And this and that. Totally unrelated to te boys but falling under the blanket of the pick up convo. Unless it was a question it went unanswered.after I am gonna do this unless this or this and that depends on this. I said ok. See you later It's difficult to navigate this Not that I want to just answer every thing and be overly friendly. It's more. Ok leave me alone. I don't need to approve of what your plans are and if your prying for what I doing stop. My job is not to pay you on the back for you planning your life. With DB S isn't supposed to effect you one way or the other. In this case tho. Not wanting to know about their day or plans and being irritated a bit by them throwing that all out there am I still attached. Tho it feels more detached?
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
Part of me wishes the txting would tail off. I was awake for 10 minutes today and the txt a started. I swear she is watching me somehow. All about do I need anything for the boys as I am getting them for the weekend. So I sat for 5 minutes and thought about all I would need that I don't have here right now. Txtd the list and she just keeps continuing with oh I might drive all the way because ..... And this and that. Totally unrelated to te boys but falling under the blanket of the pick up convo. Unless it was a question it went unanswered.after I am gonna do this unless this or this and that depends on this. I said ok. See you later It's difficult to navigate this Not that I want to just answer every thing and be overly friendly. It's more. Ok leave me alone. I don't need to approve of what your plans are and if your prying for what I doing stop. My job is not to pay you on the back for you planning your life. With DB S isn't supposed to effect you one way or the other. In this case tho. Not wanting to know about their day or plans and being irritated a bit by them throwing that all out there am I still attached. Tho it feels more detached?
Hey T,
Right now everything W does or doesn't do is turned up full volume. Rest assured that over time you will develop the skills of turning the volume down or even off at times. Keep on keeping on. You are doing great!!
It feels to me like she is feeling the pressure of my absence. And that's on her. I'm working on me, right now it doesn't involve her. I am happy for me right now am the progress I am making.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
It feels to me like she is feeling the pressure of my absence. And that's on her. I'm working on me, right now it doesn't involve her. I am happy for me right now am the progress I am making.
Positive day today. Feel good. Look good. Get the boys for the weekend. Feel really fine with seeing S today. If she comes to the house to drop off boys I will treat her like a neighbour or company. I plan on asking if she would like to stay for supper. If no. I don't care. Less clean up and more boy time if yes it's good for the boys. And she can clean up. Haha.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
Just to be polite I guess. If it were a mutual acquaintance dripping off the boys I would do the same. You happen to come to my house during supper I will invite you to eat. It has nothing to do with R or anything. Just who I am.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
