The words you've wrote on peoples threads has helped me. You have an impact on many peoples lives. Please know you are valued and needed. Zephyr, this is not an easy journey and certainly not for the faint of heart. Most traits of value come from learning through a powerful experience. To become a man only a fool would leave is easy to say, not so easy to be. I think of my journey as serpentine. I know I'll get there eventually and you will to. The timetable of rebuilding a marriage seems as slow as a glacier. Hang in there and enjoy the little things each day they are good medicine for the soul.