I am really struggling. I watched WAW pack boxes with our boys clothes last night and had to hide as I just couldn't stop crying. It is tearing me up inside and I cant find a way of dealing with the immeasurable pain inside me right now. I have been doing ok with the rules except No 18 as I feel such a mix of anger, resentment, betrayal and hurt for her right now. I spent most of the night re-reading DB. Had some sleep on and off. It's 7 months now and my head is like a ball of wool. Every time I find a focus something like seeing the boxes being packed sends me spiralling downwards again. I am not being kind of friendly to WAW. I have put a padlock on my (our old) bedroom as I do not know if she and OM did anything there and she has been in and stolen my wedding ring and pictures the boys have drawn me. I know this is a symbol but I feel like I cannot be walked over any-more and she will not stick to the boundaries of keeping out of each others bedrooms. My boys came running in this morning for cuddles and to play light sabers before school. WAW now sets the breakfast things up and leaves my space blank. It hurts me so much that I stayed upstairs. what ever I am doing seems to make her more angry and hurtful towards me. My heart feels like it is giving up. I dont want this to go on any more. I don't know what to do. I dont know what to do.
me45,W43 S9,S5 T15yrs M10yrs BD 4/07/15 W wants D 4/07/15 W filed 8/05/15 D petition arrived 21/12/15 Merry xmas, W,S5 S9 moved out 5/2/16
