Rollercoaster at rest: now what?

[NYGal]

I actually do think she still cares. Maybe not in the way I would like, but I think she does. This is all so confusing for me. I'm placing all my faith in these methods and hoping they work. I don't think there's a better method, but I don't have a lot of hope I guess. On the one hand, it seems like there's a good chance for us:
1) The breakup was hard for both of us and she said a lot of positive things about the relationship.
2) She was never mean or cruel during the process.
3) She wants to be fair re my financial situation.
4) She said she has "serious concerns" about OW, and that "something isn't quite right but I don't know what..."
5) She says she's not happy right now, and friends have said that she's struggling.

But then I think I really want one more talk with her. We sort of drifted apart at the end, and it's really hard for me. I know I don't want to beg or plead, and I don't want to hear that she's happy with OW. And I know I can't control what I hear from her, so I shouldn't have the talk at all. It just hurts so much and I'm still crying every day since I first heard there was someone else in early November, right through early January when she said she's moving forward with the OW. Words that still cut like a razor.

I just set up another phone session with my coach for tomorrow. I try and I try, but I'm so fragile and so sad.