Utterly Gutted Part 2

[Frank75]

Thanks Sotto. It was a quick turnaround. I know that's not optimal in any way but I just rolled with it because she's such an awesome person.

Yesterday was the one year anniversary of my first post here. I come back from time to time to reread my posts and see how utterly desperate I was. I don't even recognize that person to be honest. I was just scared of facing reality, scared of a new life...a life without a person i'd been with for 15 years.

It was hard but in the end i'd do it all over again. I got engaged on xmas eve to the person I posted about months ago. Again, from an outsider perspective it has to seem outlandish but I've spent almost every waking hour with this woman for the last 10 months. We make each other better people, I can't say enough good things about her. She made me realize that I'm worthy of love...I didn't realize how much self-loathing i was full of until I met her. I can't explain it, i'm just completely happy for the first time in years and head over heels in love with her. We're planning on getting married in the fall.

Hopefully someone in a similar situation sees my posts and realizes that it takes 2 to make a marriage work...you can't force it. And sometimes you just have to walk away. I'm a better person for it, as much as it hurt.