The begining of the rest of my new life? (3)

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For the last two days my S9's class has been conducting an experiment on discrimination, where half of the class were squares and less privileged and the other half were circles and the elite. They swapped the second day.
The teacher sent an email to all the parents explaining how the experiment had gone the first day and I replied, sharing my opinions and some insights. This is something I never did, although I have always been in contact with teachers and the school. I was more passive in the past, that's for sure.
I received two replies by the school director and school deputy director praising my comments.
I felt immensely proud and realised I miss this, being praised. My STBXW never did it. I am starting to find my second love language, I think.
Anyway, I feel a bit disappointed at me because my email was not entirely innocent: I knew STBXW would read it.
Today, after receiving another email by the teacher concerning the second day of the experience I replied once again. And once again I was partly thinking about STBXW.
I am still not there.
As Azzork has put it, we don't show our changes, we just be.

You cant SHOW. Then she will be thinking its for her.

Instead, you need to just BE