I have my health. I saw my impossible-to-get-an-appointment physician for the first time in about 2 years. I was filling out the paperwork and realized that I currently have no major health issues (thank G-d). My BMI is where it is supposed to be. I don't think my W can say the same. I even told my physician about my M and realized that I am doing all the right things for myself and my children.
I like who I am. I take care of patients for a living. They come to me with fears, out-of-balance, sometimes with serious medical conditions. I help alleviate their fears, restore balance, and treat these conditions. Sometimes I get jaded after seeing the 100th patient with the same symptoms, but each one is an individual with fears, hopes, and a destiny, and I need to remember that. Basically, I get paid to do good deeds for others.
I was listening to a lecture on-line recently. It seems that we are more offended by an insult when it is coming from someone who we perceive is closer to us, richer, more attractive, or more intelligent. The part we forget is that being close to us (e.g. family, spouse), rich, attractive, or intelligent does not make their words true. We can accept their words and behaviors - allowing them to lessen our self-worth, or we can reject what they are saying on the grounds that they may be flat-out wrong or ill. My WW was close to me for 15 years (discounting the last 2.5 years). I have been allowing her words and behaviors to hurt me. In truth, her actions are only a reflection of who she is, and she has to look at herself in the mirror every day and live with that.
