I guess you're right. I've been trying to have a PMA but right now I'm so mad, sad, hopeless, etc....
Of course you are.... If you did not have these feelings then it would be a time for concern. You will have all these emotions and you will cycle through them repeatedly... It's... You ready... NORMAL. Allow yourself these feelings but like a poker game, don't show your WAS, keep them here or in a safe location. I read once with a crisis like we find ourselves in we need a plan (DBing) when things happen and emotions run high, refer to your plan, not your emotions... Emotions will lead you quickly down the wrong path but your plan is a well thought out navigation tool to get YOU where you were meant to be. If you are the praying type, best advice I could ever give you, give him to God, trust God knows what you both need .... I did not say want... NEED, and trust He will get you through this. Early on I prayed for the A to end, W to wake up and come to her senses ... All that. I am standing before you and will tell you had He answered those prayers, I would be no better off, I had to change, I had to suffer in order to change into the man He meant me to be and I am eternally grateful for "the gift of time" He awarded me to change as I did ..... I laugh as I hated "the gift of time references used here... For me I would never trade in my journey... Sure I could have done without all the pain and heartache but for me it was required
So ... Trust HIM, give your M and your WAS to Him and start looking in the mirror at what you can do to become the person you were meant to be... GAL, 180, PMA, and detach.
