WAW - Detaching is the Hardest Thing

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So my work in Greece is complete and I have a 6 hour wait for my flight. I negotiated a 50 Euro day rate so I can relax in the hotel for 4 hours and take a shower and dinner.

This morning I was anxious about the lack of contact from W - yes I haven't fully detached! - and anxious about what reception awaits me when I get home. Will W be cold, distant , uncommunicative etc.

She hasn't phoned me at all , and only sent a few texts all relating to the kids so essentially NC. This is longest I have gone without speaking directly to her - ever and it is hard!

Well today she texted me about a small drama at home - nothing that couldn't wait until I got home - just about a nose bleed in the night by s8 and trains cancelled this morning for S11. At least she texted me and broke the NC.

I arrive home at approx 2:30am tomorrow or 4:30 am Greek time so a long tiring day. W will be up at 6 so I won't see her until Friday evening. I will see kids in the morning and then will do some exercise and work.

Next week I travel again Mon- Thurs , I am trying to get away a few nights a week to give her time and space. Normally I would make more effort to return home, but now I'm making more effort to stay away. I miss the kids of course, but hopefully the sacrifice is in the interests of a successful DB.