New guy

[mbebos]

Good morning all. Felt pretty terrible yesterday. (feeling ill).
Skipped the gym, took a half day off of work to recover and found my mind wandering. Went to the book store, couldn't find anything that was keeping my attention, so I called a friend who lives pretty far away and talked with him, while doing laps inside the local mall to at least get some walking in.

Had a DB coach call last night. Went well. She is really challenging me to look inside and take ownership for the things I need to apologize for, for my part of the downfall of my R. It is hard for me, because these things were not absolute, but in the W's mind they were, so that is her reality.

An example of this was me not being thoughtful towards her. Once I was accused of this, and I rattled off probably 10 things in 2 weeks I had done for her out of the norm.
"Honey, I drove you over to work so you wouldnt have to walk in the snow and brought you coffee and breakfast when I did. I bought you a shirt last week of your favorite movie. I brought you your favorite dessert last Tuesday, brought you dinner home on Thursday when I was out with the guys. I went and got you an oil change on Saturday, etc., etc."

Did this defensive response help my situation? Nope. Time to own it and move on. It is just so hard because the facts of the story at that time were so different, but her complaint was more of a complaint of a much longer time period.

Still feeling ill today. Skipped the gym again, slept in an extra hour. Trucking along. Dinner with the guys tonight.