I got home a few minutes before W and D14 got back from a lesson. I had meat in the crockpot, so I served supper. The initial exchange was very good... this morning was very good. She even made me a cup of coffee.
Knowing that she might be in bed/sleeping after I take S12 to his dance lesson, I quick told W that with my addictions group that is now meeting, that there is some confidential materials downstairs, and to please stay out of them. She looked at me and said 'ok' very quickly. Mind you, the kids are eating, and this was only a 15 second conversation, but I just wanted her to know how important it was. She followed up after my second sentence with a desparaging remark, in a way that seemed to hurt me.
Here's where I probably went wrong - I confronted her on the remark. It was a bit disrespectful. My W right now does disrespectful very well. I trailed my W upstairs to just mention that I was hurt by the comments... couldn't leave well enough alone. In the end, she shut the bathroom door, told me to go away, and took son to dance lesson, after I wanted to take him. I did pick him up, but it seems like any conversation that might be more than kids, surface level-type stuff is met with anger and disrespect.
A few more things were said, but no yelling, no shouting, no cursing/swearing. Just me with some hurt feelings, and my wife seemingly mad at me, not wanting to talk with me.
Sandi's words that she posted today ring true tonight - that my wife still really doesn't want a R with me. A friendship, yes - for the kids. But the fog that she is in keeps telling her to find every small issue, blow it up, so that it can be yet another nail in the coffin.
In the end, she isn't putting effort into the relationship. She's putting effort into being friendly. I'm afraid that I can't put up with just friendly forever - I want my wife back! But how long is it going to take? I know, I know, no one has that answer.
I'm going to flush tonight, and just start again tomorrow with a nice greeting and go from there.
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)
