Ugghhh, have I mentioned this is hard?

[trumpet]

SciDad,

Been there.

The EA is heating up again, MOST LIKELY. Not positive - are you?

I snooped, and found my wife's EA heated up again after Christmas. My wife needs the excitement, the 'juice', and it took her as far as filing the D. As soon as she did, she found regret and disappointment, and stopped the papers to be served to me.

I feel like I'm in a special purgatory where my wife has graciously let me exist for another 47 days, with her fantasy that something will happen magically and her heart will turn away from OM, or magically will fall back in love with me. Don't worry, trumpet, just sit here while I make you sweat it out, not knowing what I'll do for 2 months!

She is just as likely to fall back to OM - she still has his phone, his email, is FB friends, etc. She's getting a couple of church people to whisper the right things in her ears, and I think her conscience is moving her back to the marriage.

More than ever, the focus for both of us is to gain strength and work on ourselves. Addicts don't stop until they burn themselves out, lose the ability to buy the drug (OM may turn away), or they hit bottom, and get sick and tired of being sick and tired.

Choose to not ride that train.

What did you have for a transparency plan?