Really Really struggling right now as it seems too real that we are now getting the pieces togehter for a divorce. The divorce itself is just a piece of paper. All it really does is change how you file your taxes. Its not like if I made you divorced RIGHT THIS SECOND, that it would really change how you live your life, right?
Trying my best to not go backwards but she mentioned during this entire process that she would have a nervous breakdown if we tried to patch things up and I went back to my prior self that I was the last few years. It's where I gleaned some hope she would open back up that door but it is shut.
I am not sure how the dynamics can change?
We have to sit down again this weekend (we will be snowed in..storm going and will be stuck together) to discuss the pieces of the divorce as I met with a lawyer today and so has she.
Perhaps that is the situation I can be calm and that I want to work through this so everyone is taken care of etc.... Calm, yes. Not sure Id make any grand statements of fair and such.
The reality of what I want to say is that "we didn't really give this a shot at fixing things....how can you walk away now without putting the effort into counseling so we can maybe come out the other side" stronger? She will say: "Im sorry, but you missed your chance. I spent XXX years trying to fix things, but you werent interested. And now Im not interested anymore."
I know that is dream land.
But I just struggle with being the calm guy who walks through how we can split up our life. How is that going to help? What do you propose to do or say instead?
