dday, rebooted

[dday]

Mu, thanks. I feel like I have came a long way in the last year. Sky's the limit. I know that happiness is there for me. And if I can keep busy, mentally, them I am ok. It's the down time that gets me wondering. Sometimes I want to fall asleep and wake up a year from now, and be more at peace with it all. (Maybe even r?)

Tl2, I am still working on me. For me, the boys, and whoever I end up with in the future. This past year has been the worst of my life. By far. I still have hope, I am just going to have to work on it not leading to expectations. I do tend to hold on. I have never wanted to let go of her, since our 2nd date. Sometimes she acts more like her old self, sometimes a stranger. Depends on the day?

I feel like I should be farther along this path, and think I am pushing it too hard some days. I am exhausted, mentally and physically. I think I am reaching a shift in me. I hope so, I need a break! I need to let go, and have a little hope it returns. Not expect it.