How is it that whenever I'm managing to pick myself up, my H will crop up again?
I know, I know...I'm sounding like a victim saying that. I'm the one who is in control (I should be telling myself).
Last night I walked home. It was an hour's walk and a nice cold, crisp evening. I had a chat with a friend who is having a hard time as well. I came to understand that I don't have any spare energy or headspace to help other people at the moment.
I only managed four hours sleep.
Still, I was determined to make today a better day. My day was starting very slowly, but I was doing stuff towards making it better.
And then he texted again *sigh*
Text sounded very stilted. He wants more of his clothes and says that his mum can collect them this week or next, but there's no deadline.
He also said that the friend and colleague of his I'd bumped into on a GAL night out had mentioned to him that she'd seen me. Also that I looked really well.
Anyway, I'm super busy over the next few weeks. I have my tax return to submit, and my own business to get back to running. I don't really have time to sort any more of his stuff for now. And I don't feel like I have the energy either, I feel totally drained.
I'm going to leave it for a couple of days before I answer. I'm thinking maybe something along the lines of (paraphrasing): 'Hello. Yes, I bumped into A a couple of Sundays ago. It was nice to see her and catch up briefly. Unfortunately I'm afraid I don't have much time at the moment - this is a very busy time of year! But I will try and sort things when I can and let you know.'
I know this is a super high pressure time for him, with various personal and professional things all happening within a really short space of time. I always had a feeling he'd be passing that pressure on to me.
Tbh, I'm at a total loss. I'm feeling a bit trapped. And that makes me feel like a victim, which I don't like being.
