Hi Sixkids. Wow that's so much to handle Firstly S9 is in the right place and you are doing all you can for him. I haven't read through your witch but will over the next while
We all feel your pain and no words right now will take that away What support do you have ? Family , friends ?
I have 4 kids and I know the toll it takes on them. I won't say too much but trust me , I know how the S9 sitch feels
Again without reading through your posts can I just say the most important thing right now is to step back from what your H is doing and focus on you and the kids
It's so difficult not analyse everything H says or does but at the end of the day it doesn't matter. If and when he comes out of his dog then you can start to look at things in depth but right now it doesn't matter
I'm going to stress this bit again , focus on you and the kids , accept H is gone and while that is incredibly tough to do it really needs to be done for you to deal with your reality.
I see newbies on here struggle for so long with acceptance of their reality and the pain they cause themselves is almost more than the WAS
H doesn't matter right now , all the matters is S9 , your other children and you
Sending you positive thoughts and a hug You will get through this and you will be happy again. Rd
