dday, rebooted

[dday]

Thanks anc. According to ic, he thinks I am now mourning the loss of my m. I think I may be actually accepting what is. I have held so much hope, which led to expectations. They are my kryptonite. I haven't been able to keep the "no expectations" part of the 37.

I'm working towards let go and let God. I'm not there yet, but it's closer. I think I may need this week of grieving to move forward. It sure does suck though!!!