Tl2, glad to see ya. I know I had screwed things up in my m, but I wasn't alone there. It just happened to be that the last argument a year and a half ago, I finally was able to get my depression under control, and found meds that worked. That was also the time that she quit trying. Cruel joke by the universe?
I'm having it rough, partly because the D is sinking in? Partly due to my antiversary coming up in a couple weeks.
Ic, tonight, challenged me to try and not think about wanting her back for a set amount of days. He said that I could even mark a calendar and revisit this in 6 months, and if I still want r, to perhaps bring it up to xw. Not sure that it is the best way to go about it, but what I am doing isn't really working for me.
I volunteered to help a buddy do a home improvement project. That should help me. I really like him and his family, I like doing carpentry work, and it will keep me out of the house for a bit. A sense of purpose too. They have been a big help to me, so it's the least I can do.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
