Here's another thread that you might want to read and re-read as you travel the path.

Sandi2's 37 Rules

BTW, if you are having difficulty sleeping, you may want to see your physician and have him/her prescribed something for you.

Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to.
The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.