Hi Irish, thank you. I suppose it depends what I'm fighting for on whether or not I blew it. The only outcome I truthfully want is to reconcile with H. Yes, I know we're all supposed to be changing ourselves into better people here and I am and will either way. But I don't want to end up with just 'I'm a better person', I want to end up with 'I'm a better person and H loves me again'.
Originally Posted By: IrishM
Remember all the emotions you are going through is for you not him. It's for you to get through this. The ups and downs...the anger towards him... The missing him... Feeling sorry for him...then the anger again ... Eventually these emotions get less and less and you see things differently.
Seeing things differently scares me too right now. Differently how? I don't want any of this to happen and I don't want to feel differently towards my H. Would sure love for him to feel differently towards me though
Originally Posted By: IrishM
I too said things to my wife I later regretted. Thinking I made it worse. At this point anything you say or do won't phase him . They hear what they want.
Well that's good news then, because I think I pretty much said everything I've been thinking and feeling for weeks to him on Sunday!
Originally Posted By: IrishM
It's good he stuck around but the way he did it was like a sulky teen. He told his friend he couldnt go out then he buried himself in front of his laptop.
Yes, he didn't even interact with D7 at all except when she had some lunch. She wasn't remotely interested in him being here and neither was S11. S11 comments every time H goes, "Well, that was a waste of time, Daddy doesn't do anything with us when he comes round, just sits there, what's the point?" Smart kid!
