Mutatio, I am sorry for your pain. Some days are just harder than others. I don't know what is going on with your W, or what is in your future, but I am willing to bet there is woman out there who is working hard to pull herself together to be attractive for you. Whether its your w or someone you haven't met yet, you are going to be loved again. Because you are a loveable, compassionate and caring man. You will not be lonely and hurt forever. Now what are you doing for yourself today?