WW, My Addiction, Patience, and HOPE

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Sandi,

Thank you again. I didn't think stating that question would help - my gut was it was going to make her angry, but I did it on the suggestion of the pastor. The reaction was what I thought it would be. The only positive is that she know's I'm focused on the marriage, and that selfless love is how a great marriage works. She's heard that before at marriage retreats, she's just in denial mode - her heart is still in OM's camp, and she's struggling.

Pastor's going to be reaching out to her, just as another person to talk to. Her friends are really pushing for her to continue filing. She has a couple friends that told her she was wise to slow down, but some of her best friends from college aren't practicing Christians, and some are already divorced - they're grinding their anger axe by giving bad advice to my wife.

I have to let go of the fear that if I don't do something, I fail. Just moving forward like I have been is the way to go - with a focus on my happiness, which will in turn show others around me I'm the lighthouse in the storm. If I am TRULY happy, I won't be able to hide it. And she will want to know that person - since it wasn't me for the last couple years.

81 days porn free. It truly is a daily choice - but it's a lot easier after the first 45-50 days or so. I struggle a bit some days, but struggling is better than giving in.