WW, My Addiction, Patience, and HOPE

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Update time.

Sunday was good - Monday, not so good. She's struggling with the withdrawls of the OM.
I asked her last night, per the suggestion of our pastor, this question "What can I do to put you first?". His reasoning is that we both need to focus on putting our needs in the back seat, and our partner's needs in the front seat, like Christ.

Well, that went over like a lead balloon. She got upset from what I could tell, and left the room. At least she knows I want to put her needs above my own, even with the EA so close in the rear-view mirror.

I'm doing well mentally and emotionally. Physically, I need to get back on the workout regime. My achilles/calf strain is an excuse. I'll be signing up for Planet Fitness and $10/mo soon. I can at least wake up early and ride a bike or elliptical vs. running for now. Might even stop by tonight.

Meeting up with my old roommate from college and a good friend. We had grown apart in the last 5 years. Lots to catch up on. He's a good listener.

One positive note - my wife sent me a note telling me she changed her email password. She said it wasn't really appropriate - the password included the word Divorce, so maybe that's a good sign?
I told her she could make it anything she wants - it doesn't bother me. I did make mention that accountability vs. her privacy is a fine line right now, and that it's worthy of discussion in the future.

Made it to a men's bible study this morning at 6:30AM.

Got another couple marriage books in the mail. Got plenty of things to read right now. Divorce, and marriage bomb drops make you humble, and realize you can't fix things, and you need help yourself. I'm finding a TON of things within myself, and how to communicate well with my spouse, with every book I read.