Thank you for sharing, and my heart goes out to you.
Your friend sounded like a lovely man and more importantly a dear friend. One great thing about people that are truly good souls - they tend to stick with you long after they've passed. Embrace the pain, but allow him to revisit your thoughts when you need him to encourage or support you.
Me-38 W-38; T-15 M-12; S10 and S6 BD - July 2016; EA confirmed; confronted Aug 2015 EA dissolved 12/2016
Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option - Maya Angelou