I'm bitter and mean and crazed right now. I am fighting the urge to call W and tell her she's a fool and has made the biggest mistake of her life. I would have rammed her car if I saw them. I am not doing well at all right now. It's not pretty. I am sick and I am tired and I am struggling to stay positive.
o what is your plan to try to address these kinds of things? You dont want to live the rest of your life in this state, Im sure.
For me, it was dragging myself out of bed over and over again to friend's, to new activities, to do stuff with my kids, and so on.
Your tears arent limited; happiness doesnt just HAPPEN.
Im glad you went out, Im glad you made it through some of the movie. What are you going to do today?
And also, think about this...You did the very best thing that you could do for your partnership today.
Originally Posted By: NYGal
I want to throw things. I did my one hour of exercise today, but I've been indulging in a crying jag that won't quit. Right now I think I hate her. Then I miss her. Then I hate myself. Then I just want to disappear. But I won't. I'll keep fighting. For myself and for my life. A new life. But it's just so hard. So very very hard.
It is. But, every day it can get a little easier. Set your goals small and take pride in accomplishing them. Set very mini goals if you need to: - smile one genuine smile - take a shower without crying - work out for an hour - go 1 full minute without thinking about W once and so on.
Start small and take pride in your accomplishments.
