Don't believe for a minute you blew it. Remember all the emotions you are going through is for you not him. It's for you to get through this. The ups and downs...the anger towards him... The missing him... Feeling sorry for him...then the anger again ... Eventually these emotions get less and less and you see things differently.
I too said things to my wife I later regretted. Thinking I made it worse. At this point anything you say or do won't phase him . They hear what they want.
It's good he stuck around but the way he did it was like a sulky teen. He told his friend he couldnt go out then he buried himself in front of his laptop.
Glad you shared your feelings. Hugs to you xox
Irish
M51 XW43 (38 at bd) BD1 MAY 30 2015 BD2 JUNE 25 2015 by text moved out Aug 2 2015 left both Daughters 13 and 15 (now 18-20) Her divorce Final July 26 2016 Last time she saw her kids Aug 2 2015
