I have been crying for 4 hours. Cried through The Reverant, and had to leave toward the end. There was also a crazy guy just behind us, who started to mutter and say crazy stuff so we left. It was NOT the movie to see on a down day. Very, very dark. My friend told me that W is (no surprises there) still seeing OW, but that OW "doesn't want to meet W's friends yet." Tee hee. Gee, the up-until-now straight woman doesn't want to be "out" yet? Awwww, poor girl. She doesn't want to be the new big dyk@ on campus? Awww, poor thing. I'm bitter and mean and crazed right now. I am fighting the urge to call W and tell her she's a fool and has made the biggest mistake of her life. I would have rammed her car if I saw them. I am not doing well at all right now. It's not pretty. I am sick and I am tired and I am struggling to stay positive. I want to throw things. I did my one hour of exercise today, but I've been indulging in a crying jag that won't quit. Right now I think I hate her. Then I miss her. Then I hate myself. Then I just want to disappear. But I won't. I'll keep fighting. For myself and for my life. A new life. But it's just so hard. So very very hard. Can't I please just text her and say scr#w you?
11/4/15 W revealed EA/2 months later became PA with co-worker Reconciling since late April 2016 Don't give up until it's time, then move on Be patient, strong and kind but never a doormat
