Ugghhh, have I mentioned this is hard?

[SciDad]

Thanks Rich! I'm not sure I'm totally at peace with not checking her phone, but I know I have to be.

The progress I see now is that the ups are not as high and the lows are not as low. If I pull back I see improvement, but my heart is gullible and trusting and squishy. Part of me doesn't want that to ever change, part of me is terrified that I've already begun to harden.

As for guitar, I've never had any lessons and am not very good. But I stopped practicing because my wife hated listening to me. With all this going on I decided I don't give a F what my wife thinks. I won't ever get good unless I practice. So I practice, and get better, and have fun. And if I reconcile with my wife I will give her a concert she'll never forget.