Thank you job, you are right . I think I may have fell into a trap losing my cool (so out of character for me). I let myself down, & after all the good advice I got just before this. She started the conversation she by saying I seemed to be living in denial that she wants a D, so I think she was upset I wasn't down in the dumps. After my initial shock I remembered things I've been reading here and tried to keep in mnd who I was arguing with, certainly not the woman I once knew.
I spent a lot of time last night reading your detachment thread. Time to keep working on myself, I'm not where I thought I was.
Thank you everyone for posting, I've read through your threads and have found inspiration in them all.