"I think a human being can only go so long with carrying this heavy load of attachment and being in limbo, after a certain point you need to let it go or you will get sick or clinically depressed. I could feel it in my body and soul, that I just couldn't carry it anymore.
Dday and Mut, I think you are ready. I can sense a difference in both of your postings, I think you are ready to start feeling better and taking back some control of your own life."
I agree completely. I don't know why I feel in limbo even after the D. My high hopes are kicking my a$$ most days. Why do I keep seeing things in an unrealistic view. IF xw decides to try again, it could be months or years from now. I may or may not want it by that time. I need to keep reminding myself that she chose this. She wants this more than she wants to be with me. Hopefully sometime soon she will decide the opposite. We shall see. (words of xw) It's the truth though. Don't have a crystal ball, and I am not a fortune teller.
35 3 boys Not my circus, not my monkeys anymore....
