New Year, New Attitude

[ciluzen]

Thank you again, Ancaire. You seem to be making some great moves and changes, as well. What's that saying? Change or die?

I understand now when people say "your old marriage is dead". I know mine is. It needed to die.

But so did the old me. I was unhappy. I just was existing, complaining, and following H around or, worse, watching him have fun while I withdrew and pouted, then attacked him out of jealousy because he was having fun without me.

Change or die. I had to let that me die. I'm working on rebirth right now. Its hard, but getting easier. Each little challenge, each little step towards unburdening or growth. I can feel those wings growing. I can feel the lightness.

My hope is that H at some point notices it too. That does matter to me. It should. I'd like a new marriage, as well. But I'm not in control of that.