The start of my happiness.

[Tyler12]

Hi keefa.
I can't say I have stopped hoping. Or that I don't read into little signs too much. I still do. Not as much as I used to. It takes time. It's still very hard.
After W moved out the first thing I did was have a hot shower and cried. A lot. Got it all out.
After I got dressed in decent cloths. Looked good and started supper. While that was cooking I walked around at the empty spaces on the walls and in the rooms. Instead of missing all of the stuff I made myself think. What do I need to et to fill that space. What piece of furniture or picture will look good there and be me.

I do warn tho. I had myself mentally prepared for moving day. I played it through In my head a thousand times. What I would say. What she would say how we both would react or act. None of it involved crying. Or any painful or hurtful talk.
It went nothing like I envisioned. We both cried. She embraced me. She initiated talk and touch. Nothing like I expected.

When I got home yesterday and the house was empty (people wise) I grabbed a note pad and started lists. To get. To do. An started making those lists instead of focusing on te silence and her.
For now when I think of her or R I go to te lists. Add to them or do the things I have written down. I read DB. I started doing yoga, I have school to study for.

Listen to the people that post on your thread. They are full of great advice. It's hard to listen and follow in the beginning. And I was hesitant to act in the ways they suggested but when you see results from it it's hard to argue.
All that said. Remember I am new to this too. I joined 15 days ago and really started trying to DB maybe 7-9 days ago
Read the sticky threads and recommended ones from cadet.