Hi V, I am very sorry about your friend. Please, try to read and follow somethings you can do in order to grief the death of your friend that was dear to you.
You had too much loss V and every time it takes a toll on your health. Don't let go. Every time there is a bump, you need to remedy that, not just sweep it to under the rug. Take care after these wounds, even if it feel not so severe at the moment.
Glad you are taking the time to exercise. Not very sure if it is a good thing to do 2 hours a day every day. You may want to look into the kind of exercise that would be more effective to you.
I have patients that need to maintain their diabetes under control and 30min workouts or 1 hour walk serve them better then a long one that makes their sugar oscillate.
Also, eating more frequently but in very tiny portions may be a good turn around for your metabolism.
No one is the same V, not sure if it would help you, but you need to find something that works for you.
V, thank you for your visit on my thread, I appreciate. I was in a Divorce support group last night and it was very, very good. It will be 13 weeks and I hope to get enough strength to finally LET GO. It has been a long and painful journey, but I may feel better.
V, you are an amazing and wise woman, please, keep the hard work and take good care after yourself.