You're not messing up. You're just trying to find your way in a difficult situation. You will figure it out. Considering all he has put you through, the least he can do is give you SPACE!
M:45 H:48 M:11 No kids BD:Sept'15 EA:Confirmed 1wk later PA: Oct'15 12 '15 2 wk R Just kidding, H wants NC 12 '15 H back w/OW 4 '15 R &still working on it