You've made it near 150 days! Hooray! It isn't easy from here, but it's doable, and it's not impossible like the first 90 days are (sorry newcomers!)

You're right. It's amazing the skills you pick up. I posted on my thread a few weeks ago about handling XW's text about divorce...I felt like she punched me in the stomach and hurt her hand because I've been working out every day and my abs are like steel (metaphorically...my actual abs are like steel, heated to 1200 degrees...). It feels so good. Ha ha!

As I've said this is the stage of imaginary conversations. Really wishing you could share your feelings and thoughts with WAS. It IS really healthy to do and say all of those things. The funny part is after writing all of that out you see it doesn't define you. Those thoughts just reflect your feelings which reflect the pain of the loss. They aren't YOU. You are in the middle, the eternal spirit, that is always at peace, content, and full of joy. When you can validate your feelings and still connect with your highest self, your choices become better and better, and soon reality changes around you, and the feelings follow too.

I'm so excited for this leg of your journey! Great job!


Me:38 XW:38
T:11 years M:8 years
Kids: S14, D11, D7
BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15