I'm going to call today a success, at least in terms of growth.
I went to church and was moved by a very inspiring sermon on forgiving others (forgiveness is the theme this month).
Church was out at 10:45 so I went to a sports pub to watch the rest of the first half of the Seahawks game (we were losing... badly) and eat.
Then I went to the theater to see "The Revenant" (intense,but great movie).
It ended 20 minutes before my book club at a local restaurant.
Due to my thoughts during this morning's sermon and my sudden loss of negative feelings toward various people in my life, when the hostess (Bubbles' sister, for anyone who followed my thread) came in to the restaurant, I asked her forgiveness. I apologized for venting about everything including my feelings about her sister and H. She didn't need to be pulled in to the situation, especially since it was her sis. She seemed relieved and happier once the air was cleared.
After book club, I also pulled Bubbles aside before we left and apologized to her for my escalating anger, jealousy, and general bad behavior towards her over the years. Explained how I had fixated on the relationship between she and H, and explained that I didn't realize why he was pulling away from me at the time and blamed her. I also let her know that I had nothing against her and cared very much for her still. And that I still loved him very much. She gave me a big hug and we talked a bit about my situation. She apologized to me, as well.
I feel even lighter getting rid of that burden. Progress for me emotionally.
Skiing tomorrow.
M-51 H-54 2D-27 and 25 M-26 yrs Bombshell and IHS 7-29-15 He moved out 10-3-15 D filed 1-27-16 D final 10-27-16
