Spent the day with my son. Did a lot of thinking about everything, trying to get a grasp on something that I can focus on which would carry me out of the hole I'm in. Focusing on being a good dad doesn't seem to help. I am feeling very depressed right now. Lots of crying yesterday and today, lots of soul searching, but coming up empty handed. Life wasn't perfect, but I was happy 3 months ago. Now my life doesn't seem worth living. I'm worried that I am slipping back into the depression that I was in 10 years ago before I met my W. I might be smart, but I am just not emotionally strong. I just don't feel like I have the strength to DB. I just want to give up, crawl into a hole and disappear.
Me: 39 W: 36 M: 8 yrs T: 10 yrs S: 7 W started coming out with the truth: 9/26/15 W finished coming out with the truth: 11/12/15 W started sleeping in guest BR: 11/13/2015
