Emotional whiplash is a good way to put it. I still have kids at home, and I have nothing to put up in place of all the photos, so I fear if I take them down...1. the kids will notice and start asking questions and 2. I will look at the empty place where those photos were and still feel badly. One thing I am slowly learning is that there is no magic way to feel better. I just have to stop feeling sorry for myself. I've spent the last year "checking up" on him by driving by his place and looking for his car. If it's there I feel good at least he's not out, if not I wonder where he is. If the car is there and there happen to be other cars nearby I wonder if he has someone over. It really is a no win situation and I realize it does me no good, but for some reason I still feel like I "have" to know. I read some thoughts posted in another thread that said, you are just hurting yourself by doing this. I sometimes wonder if I am trying to punish myself by doing this?
M: Early 40s H: late 30s 2 kids under 10 M: 15 yrs BD: 7/14 S: 10/14
