REALLY trying to detach...but GALing regardless!

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Apparently it's time for a new thread. Still don't know how to link the old ones to the new one.

I have still been unable to detach, but I am trying. God knows I'm trying, I just am having a hard time cooperating with myself! I know what I'm supposed to do/not do but there's this one part of my brain that takes over and before I know it I'm driving by his house again. And, again. And, again. The thing is, I KNOW if he were to see me drive by I would be so mad at myself for having allowed that to happen, but yet I do it anyway. I will continue to work on it every day and eventually I WILL get there!

I have been doing some serious GALing though. Does that cancel out some of the badness of the drive bys? I have been hanging out with some new friends, going to different places and trying new things. I have been out 3 times this week, and that's in addition to just going to someone's house to visit. That's awesome for me! Just this last week I actually got up and sang karaoke (as a group, NOT by myself LOL), I danced with a guy that I don't know 3 times in one night (havne't been dancing in 25 yrs!!!), and last night I met up with some friends and went to a restaurant/club and ate while listing to a live band. These are all things I would have never done before. They really aren't in my comfort zone, but I did have fun and it was nice just getting out of the house. Have been thinking about looking into dance lessons. I am NOT a dancer and do not want to look like an idiot if I go dancing again. Have also been thinking about checking on taking a cooking or cake decorating class or something like that. I think it would be lots of fun.

Anyway, there you have it. That's what I've been up to and where my thinking is for now. Trying hard not to think about H and what he's doing. He still enters my mind a lot, but not quite as much as he used to. I really don't want to move on, but I'm afraid that it might just be starting to happen and that scares me.