Late to the game-2

[Free]

Everyone does deserve a second chance, if they learn from their mistakes the first time around and ask for forgiveness. No one is perfect.
The way I see it now, my W was unhappy for a long time. She resented things that I did and said for years, without saying a word to me about it. Not a word. She held on to these resentments until she could not take it anymore. She eventually blamed me for everything that has ever gone wrong in her world.

We have both made mistakes. Every married couple does.
My W had options.
She could have told me that she was unhappy. She could have said that we needed to go to MC.
Instead, she quietly had an affair while she told me that she was unsure about our M. The truth is, she asked for space to sample life with OM. The whole time that she told me that she was unsure, she was with him.
Also, she lied to me. I had asked her if there was an OM soon after BD. She said no.
From an outsiders point of view, I look at this and say "of course she lied. Cheaters won't admit what they are doing."
From the LBH point of view, my view, I can never get past this. I could never trust her again. I fully understand why she lied, but I choose to not live with that.
Does my W deserve a second chance? Yes, but she will not get it. The continued lies, dishonesty, betrayal of trust and lack of remorse will never let me do it.
Maybe it was a mistake, but I asked her again today if there was someone else. With the typical blank, cold, non eye contact response, she calmly said no. It just reaffirmed my decision to end our M.
Her tune may change when the audio and video evidence surfaces in my response to the D filing. Or maybe it won't. Who knows.
It was a weird day today. I do not see her as my W anymore. She is just an enemy now. Someone that I will soon battle in court for high stakes.
I'll always have regrets for my share of the marital problem we've had. I have zero regret on getting divorced. That is fully on her as I had no say in it.