Something Mu wrote recently has raised some interesting thoughts for me. To badly paraphrase he was asking about self forgiveness and how one does it. Mu said he would try.
I have been asking myself for months, how does one have self love and self worth. I am beginning to think that Yoda may have the answer "do or not do, there is no try".
When I try to make this happen and do all the things that people who love themselves do, I find myself with such resistance. I think I have been seeing this as more of an action, rather than a feeling or a state mind. That somehow if I could just learn how to do it, suddenly all the information would click together one day and I would just feel self love and worthiness.
But in the last week, it seems to me that self love and self worth are more a state of being rather than doing. I am sure that most of you are going "Duh" but this is a new way of thinking for me.
I think it my relationships knowing that I didn't love myself or feel worthy of love, just made me feel like I had to try and prove otherwise. I anticipated that my needs wouldn't be met and they rarely were.
So I have been thinking that the answer to Mu's question about how forgive yourself self and mine about to have self love and self worth. Well I think the answer is you just decide to. You just decide to forgive yourself and decide to live your life as person who is forgiven. I just have decide that I love myself and be worthy and live my life that way.
Maybe this is completely simplistic thinking. But what if this is the case.
