Adventures of PP, Woofie, and the WAW (10)

[PigPen]

Thank you both Jelly, and 2l, I appreciate your support.

To be honest the exercise went both ways. One of my deepest fears was that my W was going to leave me, I just never knew when. I felt this way for a number of co dependent reasons, but know I believe partly because I can count on one finger in five years the times I knew my W was "angry" at me. I knew she would be upset if we were fighting, but her own anger would only come out every few years and it would be in the form of a huge outburst of broken household items. I can actually recall thinking "Oh my, she does have emotions other than happy" as our lamp got smashed.

Had we both been able to express it healthily it could have led to significantly more proactive conversations. I don't believe either of us made the space for the other to healthily express any emotions, let alone anger.

Oddly enough, the men in my group also said they trusted me afterwards because although I was angry and screaming and very physical, it wasn't out of control, thrashing rage, which it could have been. There was still a concern for their safety.

Showing anger = building trust = PP's head exploded.

Sincerely,

A Headless PP